Oh wow ...

... so forgive me, will you? I have neglected you for nearly four months. Four months. A lot has happened. My beautiful baby girl, Ca'ia, is here and she's two months old already. Laughing and cooing and screaming and full of life. Love her to bits.

Didn't have the birth experience that I wanted. But more on that in another post.

I'd like to think that the whole pregnancy and having-a-baby experience - although unplanned - has made me a better person. I am different; I had a burst of creative energy after she was born that hasn't disappeared yet, unlike my other 'bursts'. I am surer of my own capabilities. I'm finding it slightly easier to believe in my talents and in my God.

Birth is a painful experience and many times we scare people by focusing on the pain of birth ... the birth of anything. A child, a new business, a talent being refined. But the pain is 'inna timing' - temporary. The new life that it brings you lasts a lot longer. In retrospect, I wasn't ready, but this is what I needed. New life.